If you have suffered a bereavement, our Christmas Newsletter offers comfort, strength, and advice.
To help support bereaved families at this time of year, Dr. Bill Webster has written this insightful blog about remembering and celebrating the lives of loved ones and how to cope at such an emotionally difficult time.
A Change in Direction for Christmas
By Dr Bill Webster
Journeys donโt always turn out the way you expect.
Some years ago, on December 23rd my wife and I set out to visit my son and his wife and our grandchildren for Christmas. It was a bright sunny day, the flight went well and everything was going along just great.
We arrived at the Vancouver airport where we were to change planes for a 45 minute hop to get to our final destination. I noticed it first on a monitor โฆ โCranbrook โฆ cancelledโ. I didnโt say anything to Johanna, because it was bound to be a mistake, right? We walked through the airport, but now every monitor we passed had a growing number of โcancelledโ flights. We got to the desk where we were supposed to make our connection, and found that every flight but one had been grounded.
Would we even make it home for Christmas?
It didnโt make sense. We knew there was a storm forecast for the NEXT day, but the sun was still shining and everything looked โฆ normal!! What were we going to do now? This was not part of the plan.
I got in line at the enquiries desk where the one frustrated agent came over to say that she would be with us โin a minuteโ after she got the last flight on its way. I stood for over an hour while the line behind me grew quickly in numbers and even more swiftly in frustration and anger.
And when the people started to GET OFF the last flight and that too was cancelled, we all began to realize that we were in real trouble. Finally an announcement was made telling us that all flights were cancelled, for that day and the next and that โif we were luckyโ there would be flights in a few days, but that it would be first come, first served. Suddenly, worryingly, we began to wonder if we would even make it home for Christmas.
I was glad that I had stood for that hour, because I was second in line with literally hundreds behind me. The one guy ahead of me started in on the agent, venting his anger and frustration. โThis was a disgrace. He would never fly this airline again. He would complain to the management, he would see to it she lost her job, etc etc.โย The poor lady, who had not done all this deliberately I am sure, took it all in stride and apologized but there was nothing she could do.
As the first guy stormed off, I thought, โWell, that strategy didnโt work too well. Maybe Iโll take a different approach.โ I looked for her name tag. โMargaret,โ I said, โI can see you are going to have a rough evening. Iโm so sorry that the airline has put you in this difficult situation. And you donโt deserve the abuse you just took. Hereโs the thing. I am hoping to get to Cranbrook to see my grandchildren. If you were in my position, Margaret, what would you do?โ
Margaret didnโt look up, but leaned forward and whispered, โIf I were you, I would get myself over to gate 121 in the other side of the airport. There is one flight going out in 30 minutes to Calgary and if you are lucky you might just be able to talk your way onto it.ย Get out of Vancouver, anywhere you can… but donโt say I told you.โ
I thanked her, and Johanna and I rushed over to gate 121 where were able to get the last 2 seats on the flight. But what about our luggage? โForget that,โ they said, โweโll get it to you eventuallyโ โฆ which turned out to be 4 days later.
So now we are on our way back to Calgary which we had flown over 5 hours before. We felt a bit like Mary and Joseph that first Christmas โฆ not knowing where we would stay or if there would be any accommodation. Fortunately we were able to find room at the inn โฆ the Airport Holiday Inn!
A Christmas Miracle
The next day, because all the flights that should have been bringing the packed passenger list to Calgary airport to make connections were stuck in other affected airports, we were able to get on the plane for Cranbrook and arrived, with great rejoicing, in time for Christmas.
Turns out, the airline had unbelievably run out of de-icing fluid, and no planes were allowed to take off, except, for whatever reason, that one plane to Calgary. It was our Christmas miracle. We got there in the end, even though the journey didnโt work out as we expected, and we had to go by a very different and circuitous route.
There is also a way forward for you
I realize that for many of you, this last year has brought an unexpected twist, a change in direction in your life journey. You probably didnโt expect you would be having a grieving Christmas after the loss of a loved one, and frankly you wish you didnโt have to be. You may feel stuck in this situation, wondering if there is a way forward.
I am always very conscious that when someone you care about dies, your world changes. The world looks and feels different. Many times, well intentioned people see that we are emotional. They worry because we are so confused, forgetful, not able to concentrate, anxious, irritable, crying, and struggling with guilt and anger and depression. In an attempt to be helpful, they often focus on emotions, behaviours and reactions they observe, and suggest strategies to help us โget over it.โ
I have come to realize that the key to understanding bereavement is in realizing that the bereaved personโs world had been changed by the loss. Your world looks and feels different, and with it this Christmas. For everyone else, it is the season to be jolly, the most wonderful time of the year. But for you, it just isnโt the same.
Why is Christmas so difficult for grieving people? There may be several reasons. This season, for many traditions and cultures, is a time of celebration. It can be difficult as we remember better days and compare them to THIS Christmas. Holidays are usually a time to look to the future, but now future appears difficult โฆ unimaginable, and uncertainty always creates fear. So we are apprehensive about what we have to confront. We may even feel guilty about enjoying ourselves at Christmas, thinking this might be regarded as disrespectful to the person who has died. I believe we need to balance grieving what we have lost with appreciating what (and who) we still have.
ย I have Three Gifts for you today
Gifts for a Grieving Christmas. The first is given for YOU, the second has to do with your loved one, and the third concerns your family and friends.
My First Gift is for YOU
Maybe you are facing this Christmas season with dread.ย ย Here are a few suggestions:
- Recognize that this Christmas is different.
- Plan Ahead. Decide what YOU want to do. Act rather than react.
- Avoid โshouldโsโ and โoughtโsโ.
- Re-examine your priorities.
- Make the changes you think are best.
- Be honest about your feelings.
- Take Responsibility for your own happiness.
- Look after yourself. Donโt abandon healthy habits
- Be compassionate with yourself if things are not perfect this year.
- Believe in yourself, that your determination will help get you through.
The Second Gift focuses on your loved one
They may be gone, but I am sure they will be very much on your mind:
- Acknowledge your loved oneโs presence.
- Create a Special Tribute to your loved one. (Involve children in this one if you can.)
- Donโt be afraid to relive your memories.
- Celebrate the personโs life as well as acknowledging their
- Donโt allow looking back at the past to spoil what you have in the present.
- Believe that there are reasons to go on, even though you may not see what they are right now.
My Final Gift is for family and friends
Remember, they may be grieving too:
- Balance Solitude and Sociability.
- Ask for and accept help.
- Set differences aside.
- Learn to Say โNoโ to things that seem too much for you.
- Take a break from stressful situations.
- Try to find Something Positive and Meaningful in your Life.
- Take care of children. Children know when something is โwrongโ and giving them a good Christmas creates a sense of safety and security.
- Try to make OTHERS happy. Youโll be surprised how well this works for YOU!
- But regardless, just remember โฆ there will be OTHER Christmasโs.
Even one glimmer of light can overcome the darkness.ย
Thereโs a little verse in the Christmas story of the Wise Men that often goes unnoticed. After finding the baby in Bethlehem, they returned home โby a different routeโ. They had to find a different road forward than the way they had come. When you have experienced bereavement, you suddenly find that life has taken on a whole new direction. Sometimes in life we have to find new ways and a different route to get to where we need to be.
Perhaps you face this Christmas with some apprehension, and, this year, you feel like the light has gone out of your life. Nothing seems quite right, and you wonder if you have the strength to go on.
But folks, no matter how dark your situation, remember one thing. There is not enough darkness in the whole universe to hide the light of even one candle. Even one glimmer of light can overcome the darkness. It may not banish it completely, but it is never all dark as long as there remains one flicker of hope.
So come on, and light a candle with me. With Godโs help, and with the help of family and friends, you will be surprised how that flickering flame of hope will continue to burn. You will make it through, even though it may not be easy. Your supply of strength and patience may be low, but hang in, because no matter what has shattered your hopes or your dreams or even broken your heart, you are not beyond repair.
So, whatever the situation you are in, find ways to face the future with hope, which in its simplest definition is โthe belief that good is still to comeโ.
โMay you have a meaningful Christmas and a better New Year.โ
(Dr Bill Webster has a website at www.griefjourney.com, where you will find a 30 minute video and some helpful information on Coping with Christmas, including โHelping Childrenโ through the season.)